Sunday, December 7, 2008

Spiritual Sunday

I feel like recently all my spiritual Sundays have been about motherhood, but that is what my life is right now... MOTHERHOOD!

Sometimes I feel like a pretty good mom, sometimes I feel like I'm not doing a good enough job, and sometimes I wonder if it is all really worth it? I know that when all my kids are grown and gone and starting their own lives and families - that I will be able to "see" without a doubt that it was all worth it, and that I did the best I could in raising my children on the straight and narrow and to love and to be the best person they can be!

But right now, it seems more often then not, I'm breaking up fights, or having to repeat myself for the 1,000th time that day (which will again be repeated the next day), or having to feel like the bad guy because I'm having to tell my child no. Feeling like everything that I try to do as a mother isn't getting through-- BUT THEN:

There will be a breakthrough, if even for a moment, to let me know that "Bertie, you ARE doing a great job!" Your kids are headed in the right direction and love each other.

Whether it is moments where I find Ethan sitting outside on the sidewalk waiting for Dante and Erin to get home from school because he misses them.

Or Erin wanting to be with me EVERY second of the day because she "LOVES TO!"

Or Dante writing a paper in class about "If he could give the perfect gift, what would it be and why" and it would be a gift to me... a HUG to be exact.

Here is what it said,

"If I gave the perfect present I would give it to my mom. But what could I give her? I got it, a hug! Because she's nice and most of all she keeps me safe. She is also generous, kind, and she makes me smile. My mom bakes delicious foods. She makes me feel like I belong to this world. I hope I can give her this present on Christmas Eve." (melts my heart!:))

So, in my moments of parenting weakness-- I will ask myself, is it worth it, am I doing ANYTHING right??

And I will answer, YES! YES it is:)

What have been some of your glimpses into parenting that have made you feel like "yes- it is worth it, and I AM a good parent" And that made you remember that your children ROCK!?"


Trying to Stay Calm! said...

How sweet! I l♥ve your background so cute! ♥ Hugs!

Mom of 2 Cuties said...

That is the sweetest thing that Dante wrote! It is obvious that you are doing a great job and your kids think you ROCK!

Tim and Rachelle said...

Bertie, I am so in the same boat as you wondering if I'm doing o.k. and knowing I could always do better. I am my own worst enemy sometimes and let those seeds of doubt grow and flourish. You have been such an inspiration to so many and your efforts are noticed and appreciated. Dante is a gem, I hope when Jared can write I can deserve a letter like that. Take care Bertie, and know that you are very admired.

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